Hope for their future

I took the girls to Target today to have their pictures taken. I had a smokin' coupon for a whole bunch of different sized pictures...one pose though for only for $4.88.

I took the girls by myself and they did really well. About half way through Camryn got scared and got all teary eyed and pouty. You could not tell in the proofs anyway that she was upset. She is such a sensitive sweetie. She is just like me! It scares me that I am raising a mini me. I know how I turned out and I want her to be a whole lot more adjusted than I.

I know I can't protect her from everything but I will not let her innocence be taken away like mine was. I want her to be a strong, courageous, honest, open and loving individual who has Jesus in her heart. That is the one thing that will make her (and Adrienne) very different from who I was as a child. I am really thankful that she has a sister who is her age and will be her friend/support. I really did not have anything like that either.

You know come to think of it...she will NOT be like me. She has so much more going for her from the get go than I did.

Now don't get me wrong my parents were great, but being adopted does effect your view on the world one way or another. I was abandoned by someone period. You can put any spin you want on it but it all comes down to the fact that I was handed over to someone else. It does something to you.

After having my girls though I don't feel as disconnected. I have blood relations in this world. I am totally connected to my girls....heck, they look like me. It is Amazing! It is a Miracle!